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i'm lovin my job at ben & jerry's! :D today is my second day at the suntec branch (pls come visit me if you have plenty of spare time! haha.) the BEST part is i gotta work wit leen! :D yippee, they sorta grouped the both of us together, so yea. who cares abt the low pay (5 per hour) when you've heaps of funn workin wit ur favourite tunes blastin in the background! :) i even worked over time lar, supposed to leave at 230 today but ended workin extra 2 hours and left wit leen at 430. my dear leen and dogg, please settle between urself asap, i dont wish to interfere too much and most importantly, i dont wish to see my frens gettin all upset and miserable! :( it pains me to see you both so strained. on a lighter note, i'm still thrilled. :D yawns. early shift tmr. ciaos! :) cigarettes and alcohol @ 23:04
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
 you make me wanna lala.  :D :D cigarettes and alcohol @ 00:41
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OMG, ben & jerry's has UBER high expectations! but i managed to make waffle cones today! :) hmms, checked out CLUBMED (please, it's not another zouk) wit leen today, sounds pretty funn. think we might go for one of the package next year. yay!! :) anyway, i foresee a packed week ahead, so wont be bloggin till like the new year or sth. haha. heres a early christmas greetin! :D MERRY CHRISTMAS! and yes, I GOTTA GO MUG FOR A TEST TMR (it's for ben & jerry's, not my drivin). -_________- cigarettes and alcohol @ 23:27
moments of happiness elude, maybe i just misunderstood
how time flies! christmas is just round the corner. :D hmms, past wk had been busy wit meetin up and catchin up wit frens! :) slacked my day away on thurs. met shichi dogg and melr cos it's shichi's birthday. that class baby finally turns 18! he was darn excited that he is finally legal to buy ciggs lar. haha. hmms, then had netball farewell on sat at hweeying's 'spare' condo. the juniors were crazy, laughin like mad cows, and gettin high on air and liquor. tsk tsk, drinkin at sucha young age is unacceptable! hahaha, pot callin kettle black. ah wells, went for ben & jerry's interview wit leen on sunday. yay, you'll see me scoopin ice-cream at one of the branches soon! haha. met joyce to catch king kong and hanged arnd town before headin home. i swear i was friggin tired alrite! king kong lasted for THREE damned hours! the first half of the movie was pretty draggy (king kong only came out after 2 hours or sth), but on the whole, the jurassic effect was there; huge dinos, a gorilla and a blonde babe. oh, and they had this scene wit roaches, centipedes, scorpions and some unknown prehistoric insects magnified a THOUSAND million times LAR!! ohmygod, that few mins of screen time sent a million goosebumps down my spine lar. yes, it wasnt some horror flick, but giant scorpions? NO THANKS! twas dARN horrifyin lar!! haha. * met hn today! :D yes again, cos prolly wont have the time to meet up this week other than today. yay, both bought a couple of stuffs! :D OH YES, and not forgettin an amazin sightin of a EIGHTH WORLD WONDER - a rolly-polly killer fishball clad in a black sports bra under a semi-translucent white top and a cowardy tomato happily rollin alongg the streets in town. now that was a mouthful, but who cares. raaaah, cant believe my luck man, like seriously. fortunately, i took it in my stride. wasnt greatly affected emotionally by the rare sight, but i believe i had jus made the fishball's day, cos she couldnt contain her joy when she saw me and gagged in some fishball language. pathetic. tomato was muted momentarily. ha. been seein ppl i dont wanta see, i wonder if history will repeat itself. maybe HE will appear at falala in his fine red suit, ready to celebrate christmas (wit me). the thot of it makes me sick. I DONT WANTA KEEP SEEIN HIM, I WANTA SEE PEOPLE PLEASING TO THY EYES! * on a lighter note (not that i'm upset or wot), career world international woke me up wit a phone call wit a pleasant surprise - i may be employed by a private swiss bank at raffles place as admin support, wit monthly pay of $1400. :D :D but it's still not confirmed, so yea, crossin my fingers! :) anyway, ben & jerry's trainin starts tmr and i gotta read-up on their website. haha, hafta noe their mission and all. off to read up on the website and my drivin booklet for my impendin basic theory test! cigarettes and alcohol @ 01:11
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imagine the one you loved most leaves you one fine day. the only love, the greatest love in your life. suddenly your love tells you straight in the face that he or she aint happy in the relationship, and the best solution is to leave you. like fuck, your heart cringed and you're in too much shock to cry. it's worse than a slap on the face, a hurl in the stomach, or a knuckle shoved under the chin (basically anything physical). look at it in the cliched way: a physical wound takes a couple of weeks to heal, a wound in the heart takes forever. your brain registers the pain faster when you receive a hurl in the stomach than when someone walks away from you without a single sign. time heals all wound, i think it's rubbish. it dint guarantee there wont be a scar. it's a sticky situation, a confuse dilemma; you are put in a situation where you arent sure whether to hate or love. to sum it all up: it sucks. well, jus fuck it. life goes on. you became skeptical, you dont want a second scar. subconciously, barricades are erected. it's like a maternal instinct, a preventive measure to protect your heart, like how moms fuss over their kids, protectin their flesh and blood. you became vulgar and resentful; you throw endless questions at yourself. you began to hate everyone and everything, even yourself, for being ditched. all kinds of shit questions began to surface and the answers you can offer are limited. hopeful ones lived on, desperate ones began to live on razors. * november rain; guns n' roses when i look into your eyes i can see a love restrained but darlin when i hold you dont you know i feel the same cause nothin lasts forever and we both know hearts can change and it's hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain we've been through this such a long long time just tryin to kill the pain but lovers always come and lovers always go and no one's really sure who's lettin go today walking away if we could take the time to lay it on the line i could rest my head just knowin that you were mine all mine so if you want to love me then darlin dont refrain or i'll just end up walkin in the cold November rain do you need some time... on your own do you need some time... all alone everybody needs some time... on their own dont you know you need some time... all alone i know it's hard to keep an open heart when even friends seem out to harm you but if you could heal a broken heart wouldnt time be out to charm you * it's just a random entry, a short reflection on a situation i read in adele parks's the other woman's shoes (melr, it's good!). it's been some time since i last teared while readin such novels. for christ's sake, that loser baboon doesnt deserve an entry on my blog. cigarettes and alcohol @ 00:06
untold was the pain i faced when you left me
i've just became xiaxue's fan overnight! haha, interesting aint it? i used to hate her like crap, but now i enjoy readin her blog. bahhh, wot a joke. ah well, today is one of the rare days i gedda stay at home and slack my afternoon away in fronta my comp. :) there wasnt much on tv too, so yea, practically spent my afternoon readin xiaxue's blogg and eagerly checkin my mailbox for any successful job applications. sigh, none at the moment. :( hmms, met up wit hn for two consecutive days. gosh, the second and third time in a wk. hahaha, either i missed her too much while she was at the church camp or that i've fallen for her. nah, for christ's sake, we're the straightest girls ever lar kae, jus that the mainstream singaporean guys are too blind to appreciate us. haha! ah well, but we prefer to remain single at the moment tho (unless faced wit exceptions). haha. oh holy crap, saw the 'married couple of the yr' in town yesterday. grrrr, tho it dint really affect me much, it still DID!! !@#$%^&. fuck it, i need a chance to get backk, but that sounds childish. raaahhhh. dinner now. laters! cigarettes and alcohol @ 18:43
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wrecked with your charm, i am circled like prey urgh, i'm currently sufferin from a series of muscle aches all over my body, esp those found on my arms and thighs. the dreadful outcome for being inactive for too longg. grrrr. ah well, at least i worked out. haha. played badminton wit classmates at warrens golf for 2 hours yesterday, and did a miraculous 30 mins slow jog. goodness gracious, i'd betta burned some calories yesterday. haha. hmms, dragged my wasted body out to town to meet my darling! :D did some shopping, took neos, had a good chat over pasta and some retarded random people watch outside zara (haha!), and swornin over matchstick-like figures in skimpy outfits, visited the empty library. basically a grrrreat and well-spent afternoon and evening wit KO HWEE NGEE! she's like the COOLEST bestie ever lar! yes, i'm xialan-ing her again. haha. wait, tho there was some sorta mishap in the fittin room. hahahaha! some neos and pics! absolutely heart that silly girl! :D  GRINNS  ure my favourite girl. :)  ladeedaa. met up wit joyce leen chingyu and yucheng on wed to bowl. caught saw2 earlier wit joyce. either it just dint really make it or that i had high expectations for the sequel. i'll settle for the latter actually. i would say it's pretty alright, delivered the promised gore and gave a more in-depth explanation to jigsaw's warped mind, but somehow it lost its 'lustre'. saw had betta planned twisted games. eight is definitely a crowd. two and a live corpse is perfect. saw definitely earned more popcorns (in the carrie chong's language). rahh, i sound like some movie critics. anyway, bowling was uber funn! :) had 2 strikes!! haha, not bad. joyce had one too! chingyu had a couple. uh, leen was so bad, she became darn bored. haha. and yucheng was the surprise that day. 150+ for the second game alright. think he had some of ron's mojo. haha. either that or he's the tyco king. haha. * suddenly i dread growin up. i'm so unprepared for the harsh society outside and adulthood. sadly, i've been sheltered all my life and i wish to remain it that way. drivin, job-huntin, lookin for a long-term goal, yada yada. anything but idle. i need cash to fund wadever i had registered for, esp drivin. somehow, i feel that i'm being forced to grow up, dont have much of a choice either. urgh, the worst of all, i hafta learn to be shrewd, two-faced, and to suck up - the three most dreaded things in my life. i seriously think i'm still pretty immature to handle such issues. sighs. :( furthermore, navigatin 'grown-up' websites can get pretty frustratin. sorry, not porn sites, i'm referrin to govt-related and job-agencies webbies. haha. * ah wells, nothing is impossible. haha, gotta start one day somehow. international plaza next week. :) till then. cigarettes and alcohol @ 02:27
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rags to riches urgh, i overslept again. thank goodness twas a mere half an hour. haha. oh wells, in the end i'm still considered on time alright (shall save on the details, or i'll end up writing a thousand words essay). and yes, headed down to sentosa today again. the weather looked utterly disappointin in the morning, and it worsened wit a heavy drizzle, but it soon became sunny and warm! :D haha, had funn dippin in the sea, suntannin, playin volley and soccer wit the guys (siong and company), and best of all, chattin wit leen and joyce. :D basically, twas a unplanned fun-filled day! haha. haha! i swear hn is one big jealous freak today lar. oh wells. uh maybe church camps aint that bad afterall, persevere dear! :) furthermore, you will have PLENTY of time to see the 'birks guy' in future rite? haha. and the day ended off wit the three of us (me, leen and joyce) attemptin a prank on yucheng. twas the most hilarious one ever lar. actually till now, i'm still not sure if he was really tricked tho he denied it. he betta beware of one-on-one dates frm today onwards man! hahaha. ah wells, maybe we'll try another one another day!! :D haha. kae lar, give him some credit for being uber nice to stay wit us at sentosa tho he was the only guy arnd lar. actually, i dint really expect him to be so nice. haha! right, i'm faced wit yet another challenge to wake up early tmr again. furthermore, i'm dead tired frm all the 'strenuous' games we had today. a nose-dip into my snuggly bed sounds absolutely attractive! haha.  :D  while joyce was whinin on the phone as part of the prank. haha! RAHHH, pimple outbreak. :( retribution, no? cigarettes and alcohol @ 23:56
yipes, did some changes to my blogg, cos i'm too BORED. rahhh, not a major revamped blog, but i'm satisfied enough to let it last for another half a year or so. haha. anyway, chingyu is back. caught chicken lil wit him joyce leen and yucheng yesterday. kinda wasted my 9.50, it's not worth that much at all lar. ah wells, i betta go slp alr. meetin joyce and company tmr at 11. cannot oversleep AGAIN. haha.
night world! :) PS. I SO GONNA MISS KO HWEE NGEE! :( cigarettes and alcohol @ 02:23
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bjork; gloomy sunday sunday is gloomy, the hours are slumberless dearest of shadows i live with are numberless little white flowers will never awaken you not where the dark coach of sorrow has taken you angels have no thought of ever returning you would they be angry if i thought of joining you? gloomy sunday gloomy sunday, with shadows i spend it all my heart and i have decided to end it all soon there'll be prayers and candles are lit, i know let them not weep, let them know, that i'm glad to go death is a dream, for in death i'm caressing you with the last breath of my soul, i'll be blessing you gloomy sunday dreaming i was only dreaming i awake and i find you asleep and deep in my heart dear... darling, i hope that my dream hasnt haunted you my heart is telling you how much i wanted you gloomy sunday it's absolutely gloomy sunday gloomy sunday it's a warped song translated from a suicidal Hungarian after he broke up wit his girl. the song killed some 13 people and got banned when it was first introduced. warped, aint it? and this version is no where near the original one. so yea. shld i meet hn in town later? yes, town again. haha. cigarettes and alcohol @ 14:55
agoraphobia: an abnormal fear of open or public places.
mega-watt YAWN. wow, it's december alr! no wonder i'm beginnin to smell christmas. haha. anyway, been stayin at home since prom night, and i suspect i was agoraphobic for the past wk. haha. anyway, talkin abt prom, tho it wasnt really a blast, it was still pretty funn! (both the prom and post-prom) food was MUCH beeta than meritus mandarin (sec 4 prom). a pity i wasnt lucky enough to win any of the huge prizes, like the i-dog speakers, the ipod nano, guess watches, tommy hilfiger scents, hp photo printers, olympus cams, x-box, gift vouchers, yada yada. thot this yr's prizes were pretty attractive tho my mazda 3 wasnt included. haha. ah wells.  stole this frm melr!  mafia mafia.  last class pic. :( for more pics of all the pretty people (tho it's kinda limited), click HERE! :D * rahhh, i'm having a series of weird dream, must be the astronomic hours of sleep. haha. hmms, so much for a more intellectual entry, i guess i'll just end up dictating my mundane life after prom. it's been stagnant for a few days actually. needa go out soon, perhaps to catch CHICKEN LITTLE or SAW 2 (critics made it sounds gruesome enough). for now, no more parties for me, it has reach its satuaration point. haha, so i guess it shall be just pure chillin out in town (we dont have much of a choice in sg) or sth. sighs. i miss writin out essays and homework. :( * shall end this longg entry wit a collage at sentosa! haha.  WIDE GRINN! cigarettes and alcohol @ 14:18 
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