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finally, the other side of the story i'm hooked on i, lucifer. i know i'm like darn slow, cos virn read that like three years ago. haha. glen duncan has a fantasically good writing style and impressive range of vocabulary. i dont mind the hassle of constantly flippin through the dictionary for the meanings of the words he used (right, my english is like amateur as compared to his kae). so yea. isnt it darn interestin to see the world in the view of the fallen angel? haha. from lucifer to satan, what a transformation. anyway, met up wit melr yesterday for xmen and some catchin up. i was darn lazy initially lar, until she offered to chauffeur me arnd. haha! so, i pangseh-ed brenda (sorry dear!) and watched xmen wit melr. it was pretty disappointin i guess, cause i was hopin for more exciting action and definitely a betta ending. and holy crap, jean grey became darn horny when she's phoenix lar. haha, sex sells, doesnt it? and not forgettin the imitation of osama on his home-made vids. thot it was funny. okae, since it's pretty new, i shant be a spoil-sport and disclose too much. :) go catch it yourself yea? by the way, it's only 108 mins. i give three popcorns, outta five. or maybe two and a half. hah.  * sometimes, i dont wanta struggle anymore. i am a weakling and i just wanta quit. but i know i cant. fuck anxiety. cigarettes and alcohol @ 01:01
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fuck, i dont have a life now. :( cigarettes and alcohol @ 02:16
you found everything you need to make a life complete
lena tan passed her driving on monday. she prolly tricked the TP tester with some lolly or sth. hah, i hope mine will be breeze too. that's approximately two months later. still a long way to go. :( anyhows, work has became a strain these days (again). with a 9-days work week and little rest, my body decided to give way last week. :( i was down wit a fever and a terrible flu bug. the only motivation i'm lookin forward to at the moment, is the record high pay i'm gonna get end of this month. :D by then, i would've finished payin for my drivin lessons. futhermore, there will also be excess for me to invest in a pair of birkis and either drum lessons or salsa lessons (anyone interested?). :) oh yea, chattin wit bimbo loo (jingmin), durin work these two days, made me adore her more. she's sucha darlin to talk to lar. hah. yay, my two free days starts tmr! :) * allow me to rant, i'll be fine after this. it is depressin to see people around me all ready to march into any one of the local three universities, while i'm left behind wit nothing. metaphorically, i'm squeezed outta the next level of the education hierarchy. i'm stuck, this sucks. now i wish i could've put in more effort. but then again, i've been puttin lotsa effort in my math and i think i'm pretty good at it. but at the end of the day, i got a fuckin D. screw the examiners. :/ i know i shouldnt be lamentin abt the As now, but look forward. i tried, and now i'm in a larger dilemma than most people decidin which uni they should accept. damnit, admittin into NUS, NTU or SMU will still get your high-paying jobs in future, provided you're willing to slog your ass off for cash (only) in singapore for the rest of your life. it doesnt really matter which one you go, you've alr got all the security i could ever wish for. fuck it, why am i so sour? cause i'm stuck wit foundation years and diplomas at private unis which doesnt guarantee my a high-paying job, but tonnes of insecurities and some shitty lost-post job with a meagre pay, mountain high of work and get bullied by the local unis graduates. come try to be in my position. welcome to my life, as hah, what a horrible stereotype. what nonsense. * i feel accomplished. just finished bookin drivin slots to pace myself to THE DAY (24th july). gonna do up a to-do list soon cause i hafta complete school applications like really soon. :( i dont wanta screw up my life again like i just did. lucks to xinwei. cigarettes and alcohol @ 02:05
i gave my number to the computer because i was high.
pick the number of the month that you were born in: 1 ---- i shot a 2 ---- i gave a lap dance to 3 ---- i smacked 4 ---- i sang to 5 ---- i fell in love with 6 ---- i murdered 7 ---- i gave my number to 8 ---- i humped 9 ---- i choked on 10 --- i bitched out 11 --- i had sex with 12 --- i ate a pick the day (number) you were born on: 1 ---- a homeless guy 2 ---- your mom 3 ---- a banana 4 ---- a fork 5 ---- a mexican 6 ---- a gangster 7 ---- a condom 8 ---- an ipod 9 ---- a stuffed animal 10 --- a goat 11 --- my dog 12 --- my dad 13 --- the computer 14 --- my science teacher 15 --- my neighbor 16 --- myself 17 --- a jones soda 18 --- a llama 19 --- a paperclip 20 --- my best friends boyfriend 21 --- a permenant marker 22 --- a policeman 23 --- a ninja 24 --- a baseball bat 25 --- my pshyciatrist 26 --- my brother 27 --- my sister 28 --- a football player 29 --- a dvd player 30 --- a pickle 31 --- my cell phone pick the color of shirt you are wearing: white ----- because i was high. black ----- because i was drunk. pink ------ because i'm a homosexual. red ------- because the voices told me to. blue ------ because i cant control myself. green ----- because i hate myself. purple ---- because i'm naked. gray ------ because thats how i roll. yellow ---- because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars orange ---- because i hate my family. other ----- because that's how I roll. none ------ because im sexy and i do what i want haha, picked this up from my friendster bulletin. try it, i think it's funny. :D cigarettes and alcohol @ 01:09
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i've a sudden urge to blast maroon 5 now. she will be loved. cigarettes and alcohol @ 16:03
dionne warwick; anyone who had a heart
anyone who had a heart would take me in his arms and love me, too you couldnt really have a heart and hurt me, like you hurt me and be so untrue what am i to do knowing i love you so anyone who had a heart would take me in his arms and love me, too you couldnt really have a heart and hurt me, like you hurt me and be so untrue anyone who had a heart would love me too anyone who had a heart would take me in his arms and always love me why wont you cigarettes and alcohol @ 03:03
you, strange as angels dancing in the deepest ocean
first thing first, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, DOGG! :D i'm gonna self proclaim that i'm a wonder woman. it's a record breakin seven days work week for me, one clubbing session gone wrong, and catch-ups with brenda and ron (and company). yes, six days of work at suntec, and one day at cathay (without the granduncle who is skiving in bangkok with the company of several gay counterparts). almost did a record 4k feat again on vesak day, but it was another case of 'so-close-yet-so-far' kinda thing. :( first day at cathay made me love (workin at) suntec more. that place is devoid of human interaction, i swear. it's so spacious that each time after i serve a customer, i gotta runn, literally, to the POS for payment. heh, now i know why that lazy arse granduncle hogs the POS. i fuckin cant stand those bootlickers at cathay that day. four girls to make a smoothie for uncle wong is ridiculous. wassup wit all the diligence in fronta big boss and then a lazy bum behind his back? bunch of arseholic fuckers. no thanks to workin at cathay again, unless i get the great company of my suntec girls. like what eugene said, suntec girls are so unique and vivacious, they make other outlet girls appear pale in comparison. in other words, those bootlickers can fuckin kiss my ass and fuck off. cathay needs people like us lar. i'm not being arrongant or wot. seriously, i was darn disappointed to have such disgustingly quiet co-workers yesterday, especially when it's cathay's official opening. where's the happy vibe that we're supposed to send out to our 'fans'? what the fuck, the only happy vibe they have is for uncle wong. oh wells, to hell with these bootlickers. the next time you see me at cathay is when i'm doing linling and zhimei a favour by helpin em out, cos they're too short-handed. my everdearet oven did the most fantastic thing at cathay today: it threw tantrum and refused to bake a nice tray of brownies. haha. furthermore, ashley and i are one step closer to perfecting the timings for baking brownies with our new oven today. we perfected the timing for the cookies alr. it's helluva good cookies, i'd tell you. :D cathay is fucked, if the bunch of bootlickers shall continue to flood and pollute the place (that includes the skiver granduncle in bangkok). they should let the suntec formidable five work there. i swear sales will hit record high. HAHA.  tell me who else can beat this lethal combi. anyway, madam wong's on vesak day went terribly wrong. graveyard and vodka shots are a very lethal combination, especially went you down em consecutively, in GULPS. before i know it, i was a goner and spewing lotsa expletives, not puke. i swear it was FUCKIN embarrassing. there goes whatever image i had left. everyone has their bad nights, eh? * i think i'm an emo kid. although i get assurance from hn, i cant help but feel all screwed up inside sometimes. i wish sometimes, i can be less bothered with everyone and everything. why do i always wanta get involved with others affairs when it's none of my fuckin business? why do i always brood over things that cant be changed? why do i always feel underappreciated (cos i thot i deserve fuckin more than what i have now)? why do i always regret? why cant i be more decisive? why do i always trust those fuckass? why am i always attracted to fuckers wit fucked-up character (and a passion for tennis)? why is my life devoid of that decent dose of excitement? why is everyone so fucked up? why do bastards always get away with their wrong-doings? why do i always allow myself to wallow in self-pity and sink into misery? fuck, why? oh, i think i'm depressed. no, it's not pms. it's just one of those pensive moods, where i just wanta live in seclusion and fuck care everyone and everything. cigarettes and alcohol @ 02:13
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the future's not ours, to see hah, wot a vibrant political scene we have in singapore. PAP continues to dominate the parliament, and the people continue to work and pay taxes. life goes on like any other day since the PAP's been the government. yes, the election is to serve as a check on the government, not to allow people to vent their anger and support the opposition vigorously BEFORE the polling day but still vote for PAP. i hope it did fufil its purpose. oh wells, politics is too complex for common people wit a simple life like me. i hope i'll gedda vote five years later tho. * met up wit leen yesterday for some catchin up and in hope of a movie, cos it's a weekend afterall and everywhere there'll be a crowd. i'm becoming agrophobic. decided to just drop the movie and settled for some place for dinner. then we headed down to cathay to check out the "soft"-launch of ben & jerry's. woot, the lounge area freakin looks like MOS with 20 more lamps lar. haha! it's darn spacious and less gay-lookin as compared to the current scoop shops. in fact, it doesnt even look like a scoop shop. it's a CAFE. darn cathay. the new branch has got a high tech sound system, velvet cushioned couch, lotsa space (triple the size of suntec), my big oven, a new belgian waffle machine, four LCD screen with mtvs streaming constantly, 16 mirrors, a lounge, at least 20 more chairs ... cathay not only has new things, but also took away tonnes of attention and what we used to own from suntec. :( damnit. the only good thing is that, they have francis, and not suntec. hahaha. ah wells, to hell with it lar. suntec shall survive well without the big oven, some of our best workers, the attention, and the horrible suntec crowd (meanie singaporeans). we made yummy cookies despite all the adversities faced. thus, i believe we can survive. haha, what rubbish.  crazy bunch of us at work today. check out our tees! :) i SO enjoy workin wit these darlings (penny, jiayan, lena, zhimei and ashley) lar. :D unless we've the same group of us, if not, i'm stickin with suntec. hrmph. ROARS. cigarettes and alcohol @ 03:09
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i always tried to find the sane life half a year just wheezed past like Dash's (incredibles) supernatural power. right, bad analogy. goodness gracious, it's fuckin may now! soon, i'll be one year older. yay. OH SHIT! lena tan found my blog. haha. it was pretty dumb of me to give her so many clues. anyway, there had been a couple of pits and perks (my version of ups and downs, hah) this week. hence, i foresee a granny-long-winded-kinda entry. haha. please pardon/bear with me, i'll make it as interesting as possible. :) * labour day at suntec, specifically the atrium outside my shop, was jam-packed with THOUSANDS of cheapo GREEN morons lining up for their free tin of MILO. free gifts attract morons like the typical ugly singaporeans, could've broke some guiness world record. and it was like a mega annual gathering for them. I SWEAR IT WAS FUCKIN ANNOYING.  i took this on a stool while screaming this: CHEAPO MILOS LOOK HERE AND GIMME ONE BIG SMILE WITH YOUR PRIZED TINS!!  SIMs - Super Irritating Morons. period. ableit my irritation, i think those election parties could've staged their rallies there, blared their loud-hailers, and did some campaigning. speaking of the GE (singaporeans just love to use abbreviations) campaigns, allow me to digress abit. SOME WHITE PARTY FUCKIN WAKE ME UP FOR THREE CONSECUTIVE DAYS WITHOUT FAIL. i swear it was more effective than my own alarm clock. at 1100, they drove by, declaring how honest and trasparent they are and want us VOTE THEM. at 1115, they made a U-turn somewhere and came back with the same message, but this time, it's in tamil. waking me up once was NEVER enough. wtf, my parents who are eligible for voting werent even home lar. and they hafta torture poor souls like me who just had a night shift the previous night. bunch of WHITE morons. anyway, back to labour day. we simply couldnt start our business cos of the crowd gathering RIGHT outside the shop. securities hafta shout at them (those squatting and sitting outside) to get their cheap ass moving. and when we start business, i would rather not sell at all. blardy hell, we've got dissed by cheapo aunties who think that our drinks are exorbitantly priced; we've got bullied by aunties who came in to demand for a plastic bag for their new-found gem (MILO tin); we've got arrogant thick-skinned aunties who hogged our cushioned seats; and we've got a crowd who doesnt appreciate our ice-cream. this is like darn sad. MILO (Nestle) had really bad marketing and PR skills. they're a bunch of moronic fuckaroos. why not incorporate a charity organisation to at least glorify their event? why not give free MILO tins to those who will need them more than those fuck rich morons? (a security guard told us that he saw a mercedes filled with MILO tins, utter disgrace) and i saw adults bringing kids to queue but cared more about the tin than their kids, and a man in crutches stumbled along with a tin in his hand. no matter what, it is undeniable that this is typical of Asians. sad but true. anyway, on the very same fateful day, when everyone working were so agitated, uncle eddie hafta abduct my big oven away. :( darn cathay.  my baby is now nesting at cathay. :(  last batch of brownie. * oh yes, we broke a new sales record on the eve of labour day (last day of april). a whoopin 3950++. was just less than 50 bucks short to 4k lar. double zzzz. but it's okae, there shall be more of such perks in future tho we figured that it's prolly the progress package that is making everyone loaded. uncle eddie treated us to sakae on tuesday. :D and his horniness had taken a notch higher. now he thinks i've fallen for him. OMFG. haha, but he's funn to talk to lar. who can joke like an 18 when he's 41? granduncle francis sure cant! hoho, new piece of good news. edmund told eugene to promote me further. that is, to execute more responsibilities and help eugene out. :) but this doesnt come with pay increment lar. pretty sad, especially now when i'm in need of cash to fund my driving. (it's draining every ounce of my pay!) but i'll take it as some internship lar. haha, furthermore, i might be doing commerce or business admin too. so why not? :) * work aside, i passed my final theory and i've got my test date for driving alr! 24th july. :D i can soon have initial d with melr at lim dua tao road. aye melr, dont cheat, must use manual car. haha. eugene says he'll call the TP for me to put barriers and clear the traffic for me on that day. haha. yay, i cant wait to EARN my licence. :) aights, i've got driving early next morning, and i desperately need my sleep. ciaos! cigarettes and alcohol @ 01:58 
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